I wish I could be in the only place I want to be,
which is far away but, next to my dream,
my ideal, my passion, my love,
this has a sense of eternity...
Absence
I can't find the way to shorten my steps to you
you are so far away, and I'm a prisoner of
this place, I'm sick. Yesterday was your b-day
and couldn't be there, not even close.
I took the wrong decisition to return,
I regret cause I miss you.
Pretty much everything sucks here,
everything sucks when you are far away
I can't be the person I was when I was near you
or just thinking about you
you drove me crazy,
that girl is vanishing, and it's sad
I don't like seeing others close to u
(feel jealous)
I don't like seeing others close to me
(feel mean)
But time moves forward, I wish It could be backwards,
always backwards cause I'm attached to my past;
I will go far north, even far, and be a little closer
I will cover myself with snow, and wait for you
on a frozen lake, to look at the moon, the stars
singing out loud our music, I care Refusenik
"nuestros caminos se cruzaran algún día"
you said it love, with a sense of promise.
you are so far away, and I'm a prisoner of
this place, I'm sick. Yesterday was your b-day
and couldn't be there, not even close.
I took the wrong decisition to return,
I regret cause I miss you.
Pretty much everything sucks here,
everything sucks when you are far away
I can't be the person I was when I was near you
or just thinking about you
you drove me crazy,
that girl is vanishing, and it's sad
I don't like seeing others close to u
(feel jealous)
I don't like seeing others close to me
(feel mean)
But time moves forward, I wish It could be backwards,
always backwards cause I'm attached to my past;
I will go far north, even far, and be a little closer
I will cover myself with snow, and wait for you
on a frozen lake, to look at the moon, the stars
singing out loud our music, I care Refusenik
"nuestros caminos se cruzaran algún día"
you said it love, with a sense of promise.
Dani le loup
Dani le loup is visiting my mind tonight...
good thing I have to write a paper,
prepare a presentation,
study for the french test...
wow, there's something related to
Dani, the moon, the howl and the night...
his howling is like the music
that blows through my ears!
music and the moon, no any freaking sun!
I deny and refuse all sorts of midnight suns!
now I can scream it!!!!
Dani le loup is visiting me tonight...
but his presence is deaf and blind
I cant touch him, and I can't say no
to the little hint of sadness...
good thing I have to write a paper,
prepare a presentation,
study for the french test...
wow, there's something related to
Dani, the moon, the howl and the night...
his howling is like the music
that blows through my ears!
music and the moon, no any freaking sun!
I deny and refuse all sorts of midnight suns!
now I can scream it!!!!
Dani le loup is visiting me tonight...
but his presence is deaf and blind
I cant touch him, and I can't say no
to the little hint of sadness...
blog
This blog hurts, it might be good to burn it
ohh! wait a minute, erase it, make it go away
I just need more time to write different stuff
but... that's the thing I don't have "time"
sometimes I think is better this way, having no time for anything, if that means sending to hell all the things that you like to do, like writing stuff, "stuff" cause I don't fall into any category. But I gotta make a living just like anyone else! sometimes I think that means getting close to be a workaholic, I will be just happy just to steal little time from my busy schedule to write. I still have due the big traveling journal.
ohh! wait a minute, erase it, make it go away
I just need more time to write different stuff
but... that's the thing I don't have "time"
sometimes I think is better this way, having no time for anything, if that means sending to hell all the things that you like to do, like writing stuff, "stuff" cause I don't fall into any category. But I gotta make a living just like anyone else! sometimes I think that means getting close to be a workaholic, I will be just happy just to steal little time from my busy schedule to write. I still have due the big traveling journal.
Apologize
Wow, it's been a while since the last time I wrote a little something in here,
it is strange to be kind of fed up with one topic of writing, Im fed up
but again I feel in a different mood to write. I have a word for the recent times and it is "Apologize"
I apologize to my new topic of writing, I did it wrong and it is now wrecked
and I apologize hoping that it is not too late...
My last topic is almost gone, still hurts, but I can say it sucks no a word for it anymore...
it is strange to be kind of fed up with one topic of writing, Im fed up
but again I feel in a different mood to write. I have a word for the recent times and it is "Apologize"
I apologize to my new topic of writing, I did it wrong and it is now wrecked
and I apologize hoping that it is not too late...
My last topic is almost gone, still hurts, but I can say it sucks no a word for it anymore...
Están sangrando mis heridas
en medio de la soledad, la lluvia
la luna, la noche
Ha sido un tiempo desde que decidimos no vernos más
yo sólo quiero tu felicidad,
Estoy sanando mis heridas
en medio del recuerdo, tu imagen no se va,
ha sido un tiempo desde que decidimos un beso más
yo sólo quiero tu felicidad!
Quiero que me cedas la mirada y la boca al mismo tiempo,
todos los riesgos dejaran de serlo,
el mundo pasará a ser ese lugar extraño
donde nos reclamaremos las ausencias,
las desconfianzas, los odios y nuestro eterno amor;
después cuando empezabamos a cobijarnos en nuestro abandono,
él (vos) decidió correr porque era tarde,
ella (me) se quedo sangrando sus heridas,
alguien tenía que sacar el eterno enemigo o amigo
(depende del punto de vista) que es el tiempo.
Salimos a la calle fingiendo ser desconocidos
cada uno en una senda rodeado de otros extraños
y ellos (vos, me) empezaron a soñar con los ojos y
las bocas inclementes de ellos mismos
en su amor empedernido...
2009
en medio de la soledad, la lluvia
la luna, la noche
Ha sido un tiempo desde que decidimos no vernos más
yo sólo quiero tu felicidad,
Estoy sanando mis heridas
en medio del recuerdo, tu imagen no se va,
ha sido un tiempo desde que decidimos un beso más
yo sólo quiero tu felicidad!
Quiero que me cedas la mirada y la boca al mismo tiempo,
todos los riesgos dejaran de serlo,
el mundo pasará a ser ese lugar extraño
donde nos reclamaremos las ausencias,
las desconfianzas, los odios y nuestro eterno amor;
después cuando empezabamos a cobijarnos en nuestro abandono,
él (vos) decidió correr porque era tarde,
ella (me) se quedo sangrando sus heridas,
alguien tenía que sacar el eterno enemigo o amigo
(depende del punto de vista) que es el tiempo.
Salimos a la calle fingiendo ser desconocidos
cada uno en una senda rodeado de otros extraños
y ellos (vos, me) empezaron a soñar con los ojos y
las bocas inclementes de ellos mismos
en su amor empedernido...
2009
Letting out my tears
I can't bottle them
or they will make my eyes explote
they may wash the pain away
but they can't kick out my blues;
mind is a battle ground
being down in the dumps!!!
Where is the source of these feelings?
grieve, mourn, sorrow
disappointment...
every end is a new begin
but still struggle...
to get rid of some thoughts
and these thoughts get stronger,
you are driving me up a wall!!!
2009
I can't bottle them
or they will make my eyes explote
they may wash the pain away
but they can't kick out my blues;
mind is a battle ground
being down in the dumps!!!
Where is the source of these feelings?
grieve, mourn, sorrow
disappointment...
every end is a new begin
but still struggle...
to get rid of some thoughts
and these thoughts get stronger,
you are driving me up a wall!!!
2009
I want to wash my blues away!
Es un día de aquellos en los que sientes una imperiosa necesidad de escribir, te preguntas porqué, y el miedo de los recuerdos perdidos por una memoria traicionera y olvidadiza, hace que venzas el miedo y trates de ejercitar la mente en busca de aquellos segundos que dejaron un grabado en los rincones de tu cerebro. El tiempo transcurre de forma lenta y asfixiante, la vida se torna aburrida y monótona, los recuerdos se disipan lentamente, pero los resultados continúan, entonces es cuando me empiezo a preguntar, el que me ha llevado a ser como soy, y la respuesta está en cada una de esas vivencias, en cada una de las reacciones, en cada uno de los segundos, cuyos grabados se desvanecen lentamente por la acción del tiempo y de una vida nueva sin mayor sobresalto.
2009
Once upon a time I cared...
Once upon a time, I CARED,
Once upon a time, I CARE,
Once upon a time, I WILL SAY I CARED,
Once upon a time, I WILL SAY I DON'T CARE
But I care...
Obsessed with this old jam...
Once upon a time, I CARE,
Once upon a time, I WILL SAY I CARED,
Once upon a time, I WILL SAY I DON'T CARE
But I care...
Obsessed with this old jam...
"Maybe Someday by the cure"
No I won't do it again, I don't want to pretend
If it can't be like before I've got to let it end
I don't want what I was, I had a change of head
But maybe someday...Yeah maybe someday
I've got to let it go and leave it gone
Just walk away, stop it going on
Get too scared to jump if I wait too long
But maybe someday...
I'll see you smile as you call my name
Start to feel, and it feels the same
And I know that maybe someday's come
Maybe someday's come...Again!
So tell me someday's come tell me some days come again...
If I could do it again maybe just once more
Think I could make it work like I did it before
If I could try it out
If I could just be sure
That maybe someday is the last time
Yeah maybe someday is the end
Oh maybe someday is when it all stops
Or maybe someday always comes again...
Story #2
You have to pack right now! Hurry time is passing by.
-Oh you know I feel lazy, I don´t want to move, even leave all that I have behind, I don’t know if I am going to find it the same way it was when I’ll come, if I come back.
-Do you feel scared?
-Yes I feel scared and strange, leaving my world and having to face new ways of being myself, I feel excited and blue at the same time, all of that makes my body feel lazy, my body is getting roots to this bed, but my mind wants to run away.
-Don’t talk about silly stuff, present is now, go and get your future, I told you.
-Yeah yeah… clothes, clothes, I’m going to take useless stuff and I’ll see, figure it out later. Would you mind packing for me? Again I feel really lazy and I don’t want to move, I have better things to think than just practical and necessary clothes.
-ok what would you need?
-Oh pack my whole house, my friends and family and I will be all set.
- ha ha ha! Are you nuts? Are you kidding me?
- No, I’m serious, packing is difficult that’s why I asked you to help me out. Do you understand me now? That’s why I feel lazy, I might be having second thoughts.
-I just don’t understand when you are serious or not!
-Nobody knows, not even me
-Anyway, I will help you
-Thanks, I think some of the clothes in the closet would be fine
-And, what about the weather, are you prepared?
-Yep, I think so, my old shirt will help in cold days, despite it is made for warm weather, do you know what I mean…?
-No! and I think I’m never going to understand your strange way of being, all that bla bla bla, just to avoid some tears or just say that at the last minute you are regretting your decision of leave, or just say you will miss everything!
-I think you are right, but I am not that kind of plain person, I am a human and I feel scared once in a while.
-You should have never enrolled in that program!
-But I did, and now am at this point.
2007
-Oh you know I feel lazy, I don´t want to move, even leave all that I have behind, I don’t know if I am going to find it the same way it was when I’ll come, if I come back.
-Do you feel scared?
-Yes I feel scared and strange, leaving my world and having to face new ways of being myself, I feel excited and blue at the same time, all of that makes my body feel lazy, my body is getting roots to this bed, but my mind wants to run away.
-Don’t talk about silly stuff, present is now, go and get your future, I told you.
-Yeah yeah… clothes, clothes, I’m going to take useless stuff and I’ll see, figure it out later. Would you mind packing for me? Again I feel really lazy and I don’t want to move, I have better things to think than just practical and necessary clothes.
-ok what would you need?
-Oh pack my whole house, my friends and family and I will be all set.
- ha ha ha! Are you nuts? Are you kidding me?
- No, I’m serious, packing is difficult that’s why I asked you to help me out. Do you understand me now? That’s why I feel lazy, I might be having second thoughts.
-I just don’t understand when you are serious or not!
-Nobody knows, not even me
-Anyway, I will help you
-Thanks, I think some of the clothes in the closet would be fine
-And, what about the weather, are you prepared?
-Yep, I think so, my old shirt will help in cold days, despite it is made for warm weather, do you know what I mean…?
-No! and I think I’m never going to understand your strange way of being, all that bla bla bla, just to avoid some tears or just say that at the last minute you are regretting your decision of leave, or just say you will miss everything!
-I think you are right, but I am not that kind of plain person, I am a human and I feel scared once in a while.
-You should have never enrolled in that program!
-But I did, and now am at this point.
2007
La curiosidad mató al gato
Cuantas veces hemos escuchado este refrán "La curiosidad mató al gato" sin embargo, siempre suena de forma refrescante, de forma nueva, cada vez que aparece tiene una nueva connotación, en este caso para mi "La curiosidad mató al gato" pasa a ser "La curiosidad revivio el gato" bueno he sido asesinada varias veces por ser una Luna curiosa, pero como tengo tantas vidas puedo renacer de nuevo.
Tal vez un ave fenix con algo o mucho de gato curioso jaja un hibrido. Me muero de curiosidad! pero da tanto miedo; ya que por tratar de saber más puedo llegar a conocer todo aquello que estaba en el misterio y asi desaparecería la magia y mi gato habra muerto de nuevo. No sé cuantas vidas tiene mi curioso gatointerno siempre las sentí ilimitadas, pero ahora "I got the feeling que son limitadas" y mi ave fenix se ha ido a volar o talvez la deje en otras tierras.
Por descubrir un misterio hace días, quedé en estado de shock, con insomnio y totalmente abstraida como dormida-despierta, muerta en vida, mis sentidos se bloqueron y tenía un dolor constante en el pecho casi insoportable, fueron unos días dificiles, mi pecho aún duele y no me permite respirar, pero estoy haciendo el esfuerzo de eso se trata. Pero mi alma me está gritando que la lleve a contemplar por medio de mis ojos nuevos lugares, nuevas esencias, nuevos sonidos; pero me niego porque mis pies se están anclando a está tierra dolorosa, cada paso que doy en esta tierra llena de espinas y puas me duele, mi cuerpo se ancla, mientras mi alma quiere volar, liberarse.
Me muero de curiosidad, la curiosidad mató al gato, no quiero malgastar las pocas vidas de mi gatointerno, soy curiosa por naturaleza, la vida sin misterios es un sonsonete barato.
En fin............ mañana será un nuevo día
2009
Tal vez un ave fenix con algo o mucho de gato curioso jaja un hibrido. Me muero de curiosidad! pero da tanto miedo; ya que por tratar de saber más puedo llegar a conocer todo aquello que estaba en el misterio y asi desaparecería la magia y mi gato habra muerto de nuevo. No sé cuantas vidas tiene mi curioso gatointerno siempre las sentí ilimitadas, pero ahora "I got the feeling que son limitadas" y mi ave fenix se ha ido a volar o talvez la deje en otras tierras.
Por descubrir un misterio hace días, quedé en estado de shock, con insomnio y totalmente abstraida como dormida-despierta, muerta en vida, mis sentidos se bloqueron y tenía un dolor constante en el pecho casi insoportable, fueron unos días dificiles, mi pecho aún duele y no me permite respirar, pero estoy haciendo el esfuerzo de eso se trata. Pero mi alma me está gritando que la lleve a contemplar por medio de mis ojos nuevos lugares, nuevas esencias, nuevos sonidos; pero me niego porque mis pies se están anclando a está tierra dolorosa, cada paso que doy en esta tierra llena de espinas y puas me duele, mi cuerpo se ancla, mientras mi alma quiere volar, liberarse.
Me muero de curiosidad, la curiosidad mató al gato, no quiero malgastar las pocas vidas de mi gatointerno, soy curiosa por naturaleza, la vida sin misterios es un sonsonete barato.
En fin............ mañana será un nuevo día
2009
3 years
No quiero dejar San Francisco
No quiero dejar Boston
No quiero Bogotá
Quiero New York
Quiero Estocolmo
Quiero Nowhere
Futuro incierto... da miedo
Dreamer's prayer
I'm against all the odds
I'm strong, a strong soul
with a good heart.
I'm special, I'm a God's child,
no difficult time will let me down,
no disparity will fade my smile,
no obstacle will stop me from dreaming.
Because I'm special,
I'm a God's child.
No distance will make me weak
no loneliness will make me sad
because I'm strong,
with good heart.
I'm a God's child!
Hannah 2007
I'm strong, a strong soul
with a good heart.
I'm special, I'm a God's child,
no difficult time will let me down,
no disparity will fade my smile,
no obstacle will stop me from dreaming.
Because I'm special,
I'm a God's child.
No distance will make me weak
no loneliness will make me sad
because I'm strong,
with good heart.
I'm a God's child!
Hannah 2007
Heaven knows I feel miserable now
Cant get this off my head
I miss you sooooooo much!
I just want you around, I just need you around!
Jump off, I will catch you,
I will destroy everything that is keeping us down,
and then I will love you, I will take care of you, I will protect you!
At the end you don't have to explain,
I understand, I will understand...
It's understood
2009
I miss you sooooooo much!
I just want you around, I just need you around!
Jump off, I will catch you,
I will destroy everything that is keeping us down,
and then I will love you, I will take care of you, I will protect you!
At the end you don't have to explain,
I understand, I will understand...
It's understood
2009
Siempre habrá gente que te lastime,
así que lo que tienes que hacer,
es seguir confiando,
y sólo ser más cuidadoso en quien confías por segunda vez.
Gabriel García Marquez
así que lo que tienes que hacer,
es seguir confiando,
y sólo ser más cuidadoso en quien confías por segunda vez.
Gabriel García Marquez
Resilience
I don't feel like writing today, I am physically exhausted, also Im kind of sick, so not in the mood to create stories; but on my other pain, I feel a lil better today, finally! I thought It was going to take forever I hope it won't, I don't want to hate or love, I don't want to feel, I don't want to live, I don't want to die, I just want to heal and smile again.
I need you to put music for me, make me laugh, I knew it is so hard to revive death things, but we knew how passionate could be to see the remains burning in fire once again.
I want to hate you, find you, love you, lose you, hate you, love you again, I want to stay away, I want to erase my mind.....
2009
I need you to put music for me, make me laugh, I knew it is so hard to revive death things, but we knew how passionate could be to see the remains burning in fire once again.
I want to hate you, find you, love you, lose you, hate you, love you again, I want to stay away, I want to erase my mind.....
2009
Ora che Lei non sta seguendo, io posso mostrarla
Notte serale. Amarlo era come amando il morto
ma io perdo che così molto,
Mi così molto manca già Lei.
2009
Notte serale. Amarlo era come amando il morto
ma io perdo che così molto,
Mi così molto manca già Lei.
2009
........it..................is..................not.........................fair...........
..................just......................................silence........................
.................not...............fair...........at.........all...........................
......I..........have................to.........put............an..................end.....
................to.................the................long...............grief.............
...it................is........................not..........................fair...........
........that........you........are..........dead......but.......alive......somewhere.......
........close............and.........far...........at.......the........same............TIME
..................just......................................silence........................
.................not...............fair...........at.........all...........................
......I..........have................to.........put............an..................end.....
................to.................the................long...............grief.............
...it................is........................not..........................fair...........
........that........you........are..........dead......but.......alive......somewhere.......
........close............and.........far...........at.......the........same............TIME
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